MY FEELINGS RL/SL

PART 6

FEAR OF TOUCH - PART 2

Like I said in part one I agree with the idea that the fear of touching someone is more like fearing invading there space.   I really feel that I have this feeling remaining and it is like I feel those near me may have the fear of being touched, as I had that feeling.   It is not a good feeling, the fear of being touched,  and I would not want to cause someone to have that feeling.

Some of the ways it effects me in RL.  For example to walk into a bar.  It is crowded and I see a empty bar stool,  I have a hard time sitting on that stool because I would be invading the space of some one.  Now if the stool had no one on either side of it then I can sit there.  If someone then sits on the one beside me I have no problem.  It was there choice and in many ways I feel good that they did.  This is the same as, for example, going to a gathering, like a meeting or a movie, I like to arrive early so I can take a seat that is not next to someone.  I then have no problem with anyone then sitting next to me, it was there choice.

Even when it comes to contact,  I do not make the first contact.  I love body contact.  Placing a hand on a shoulder can be tough.  Kissing  and hugging can also.  You place your hand on my shoulder then I feel you accept me and then I can be at ease and place my hand on your shoulder.  You hug me and then I have no problem hugging back and after this acceptance I can hug you easily in the future.

I love body contact, kissing , hugging and look out once I feel accepted.  Need I say more. Kissing, wow very hot.  (smile)


Have a really great day in RL and SL.